It has been a real long time since my last blog post. No explanations or confessions.. rather I just decided to start again.
2012 has been exciting up till now. First I got my work permit and I started teaching in the Netherlands. I always wanted to be a teacher but it was only when i started teaching, I realize how much effort and preparation goes in a two hour lecture.I started respecting my teachers even more since I became a teacher myself.
End of February, I had a fabulous week long trip to NY. My first trip to NY, first presentation in an international conference.. I was nervous and excited at the same time... this trip was special, i met interesting people, and also did some touristy things like visiting time square or strolling through china town and bargaining for things...NY felt like a home, loads of similarities with my city Mumbai. People were extremely friendly and helpful. I would love to live in NY for a few years to explore this city more...
March was special for my brother was visiting me in the Netherlands. We enjoyed our time and company of each other. We traveled a bit but it was also special how he took over household responsibilities while I was at work.We also spent time with some common friends. The days flew by and there were many things that we could not do. At the same time, there were also a number of sudden plans and opportunities that came our way and we could grab it. Sometimes we were amazed with new transformations in each other's lives, there were moments of tension as well. But overall, it was a special time that we could share.
Now my brother has returned home and I have to plan for the days and months ahead. I often get amazed at the wisdom of my brother and admire him for who he is. There are so many things that I still have to learn from him and most important, I have to learn and see him as a capable, confident and strong man whose heart and feet are in right place. I have this man to support me through my best and worse times and to remind me when I am going off balance... i am grateful for this special relationship that I share with my brother.. he makes my life more colorful and vibrant..
While all this has been happening, the seasons have transitioned from the winter to spring. I want to have similar transformation on how I feel about myself and how I perceive my life. Rather I would say that I want to go a step beyond and blossom in my personal life with the spring in the air and be open and willing to enjoy the summer of life. First task is to take things easy, to allow myself to make mistakes and fail once in a while, to let go of my control freak nature and to learn to live the moment and relax.. I am realizing that with my personality, I often exhaust myself and the people around me. Nothing I do or gain is good enough. I beat myself up with all the criticism and then I just dont even want to try it any more.. the journey ahead is long.. but only when i start taking steps, I would reach somewhere.. the simplest way to get started was with this blog. I have been procrastinating about my blog writing as well... I dont have anything interesting. I cant write very well, so on and so forth.. but who cares.. I am not writing for people. I am writing for myself and I dont want to win Nobel prize for literature.. all I want is to express myself and share some of my thoughts with the others...
Take time out for yourself this spring and dont forget to enjoy the life.. This is also the message and mantra for myself... I want to be happy and enjoy each day and moment ahead.. are you ready to join me?
