I am finding joy in little things around me and I am slowly getting drawn into it. What did I do all day today? Well lingered in the bed reading a book. Title of the book: 'My mother my self'. One of the seminal books on mother daughter relationship written in the 70s arguing for the need of separation at a psychological level between the mother and the daughter for the woman to fully realize her own unique personality. I am not sure what exactly I feel about the book, even difficult to say what I agree with and what I disagree. One thing is for sure though, many parts of the book, and particularly narratives of women remind me and make me reflect on my own life story and my relationship with my mother. I fell asleep while reading the book at 11am in my cozy and comfortable bed. That was fun.
The sun did not show up all day today and I knew it would rain in the evening. I have been feeling lazy to go out. I wanted to get some nice green chilies and fresh curry leaves from a Turkish store in the city center. He gets these 'typical' Indian things from London and he gets fresh stock on Friday late evening. I love the flavor and aroma of fresh curry leaves in my cooking and how can I make Kanda pohe without those little green chilies and freshly grated coconut. Food always motivates me and I biked to the city center this afternoon to get my coveted ingredients.It was totally worth it for two reasons. First I could locate the shop without any troubles and map was not needed. My memory and the little area in the brain which helps us with directions was functional 200% this afternoon. I felt so proud of myself. Second, how can I not feel happy to hold those fresh curry leaves on their twigs in my hand. They are my prized possession, worth of diamonds in some ways. Gosh, I will use fresh curry leaves after almost five months. I am so excited for all the upcoming cooking. I remembered my excitement in London in May this year when I was strolling around in predominantly Indian area. It felt as if I was walking in Mumbai. No wonder they call it 'little India'. I came home and first made sure that my little green diamonds were stored safely so that I can retain their freshness and use it in upcoming weeks. My dinner this evening had extra taste of all the spices and the house still smells of the same.
I have been wondering about little things that could make me happy. For example a blue butterfly. Have you seen one recently? I came across a visualization exercise and I have been wondering what would I like to come across? the little things.. For a while, I was confused. I could not pick up one thing.. rainbow.. yes I would love to see a rainbow. may be even a double rainbow! Did you know that the second rainbow is much faint and its color spectrum is in the reverse direction as compared to the primary rainbow? I learned it this afternoon, while googling double rainbow. I would like to see a butterfly, a blue one in particular. I love butterflies, their colors, their delicate wings, their fondness of sunshine.. I love it all. If I ever get a tattoo, I think it will be a butterfly. But it is unlikely that I would get a tattoo made. I also thought about a unique pendant, may be shaped like a butterfly? and then all I could think about was food. I could visualize kanda bhajji, pav bhaji, chole bhature, bhendi masala, gulab jamuns, thalipeeth and so many things.. I got totally distracted and started feeling hungry.. I had to consciously bring my mind back to the blue butterfly... one day soon I am sure, I will come across one. I have no doubt about it...
is there something that you want to come across?
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