Dear little girl,
Can you hear my voice?
I know you are hiding somewhere deep down there..
busy, rapidly building walls around you
almost with zeal of a spider spinning a web
or a caterpillar turning into a cocoon.
Dont get startled,dont be scared..
It is me, I am part of you, I am you and you are essence of mine
I am not hear to tell you
you have been unreasonable, I am just here to be by your side.
Will you try to stretch out your little palm
so that I can hold it and enter your little cave?
do you think we could just hug each other
living no space of inch between us?
Let the darkness engulf us both
let us be one with the darkness
should we try and cry together
May be that will help ease our pain...
No, no, you are definitely not abandoned
I promise that will never happen
Even if the whole world walks away from you
including those who tell you that they love you..
I will be there rock solid by your side.
To be honest, i am not sure if I am
any better in handling the pain and
all these newly experienced emotions and feelings
but if we put our two little weak and vulnerable hearts together
I think we will find our way...
Little girl, I so understand your pain
I hear your heart beating like a drum
you struggling to breath
and you trying hard to control your tears
Little one, I must tell you...
I love you dearly for just who you are
all your imperfections and vulnerabilities
all those fears and faults
I love your passion with which
you wall your pain off from the outside world
I love your passion with which
you try and reach out to everyone that needs love
I love your passion to face your fears
I love your passion to try and feel the love
This has not been an easy journey and
it wont be one.. but darling..
You are not alone
I am always going to walk by your side
I am not the strongest or wisest soul around
but i know together we can survive.
I never want you to loose that vulnerable side in you.
I never want you to become a robotic machine
working on autopilot without caring for emotions of others
in the name of living for yourself and living at a choice.
There open the flood gates and I hear your sob
I hold you in my arms..
You are safe, you are my angel, my darling little pearl
You are everything I can only dream to be
and even more so with these sobs and tears.
Cry my darling girl, it is just fine to cry
You are crying for yourself
to release your pain, hurt, sorrow and discomfort
and dont let anyone tell you that you are wrong in doing that..
why are you hiding away any ways?
who are you scared of?
why these wall construction all over again?
when you have been working so hard to bring them down...
You survived most difficult times
by successfully walling yourself off
you managed to swallow your pain, trauma and anger
along with your cries for help and reasons to smile..
But darling, I know there is another side in you
that is waiting to be given a release
let that anger out, let it go
you have reasons to be mad
You have hurt yourself long enough
by internalizing all the pain and grief, fear and anger,
Is there a reason why you are afraid to let it out?
who or what are you trying to protect?
It is that anger that drives you in life
It is the anger that protects you from harm
Anger is as much part of life
as is love, joy, happiness and sky..
Yes I know you are doubting yourself
and doubting world around you..
You are unsure of the path you have chosen
and you really want to surrender and give up on life..
you lost your sense of pride, confidence
along with your sleep and everyday life..
You wonder if you are capable of
taking even a step ahead on this path..
It might seem easy to give up
to accept that you are not meant for this way of life
that you doesn't deserve love or joy
and it is better to live a life that you have lived up till now.
Yes you can chose to do so if you feel
that is what is best for you at the moment
you know for sure what is best for you
and I will be there with you in every choice that you make.
Sweetheart it is also perfectly ok to feel miserable, hurt,
humiliated, lost, disappointed, and weak.
Let even those emotions sink in every cell of your body
and see how deep can it percolate down your spine.
You have right to cry as much as you need
till it helps you feel lighter and ready to smile
It is ok to doubt yourself and the world around
as long as you respect yourself and dont give up on hope and life.
You are afraid that you will not
be able to express yourself any more
may be that is true since you suffered a big blow..
but hey, there is no harm in giving it a try
I firmly believe in your innate beauty, strength and femininity
your golden heart and empathetic soul.
just try and be empathetic to yourself
so that your wounds can heal and you can smile.
There is more to life than just this event
you know it better than anyone else
dont give up on life and on yourself
just because someone else failed you hard..
be yourself, take pride in who you are
stand strong, head held high and
tell yourself.. you are a beautiful soul and
you will live 'love' all your life...
I love you my little girl
I truly do..
I just wish I would have been more proactive
on helping you believe in that...
Can you hear my voice?
I know you are hiding somewhere deep down there..
busy, rapidly building walls around you
almost with zeal of a spider spinning a web
or a caterpillar turning into a cocoon.
Dont get startled,dont be scared..
It is me, I am part of you, I am you and you are essence of mine
I am not hear to tell you
you have been unreasonable, I am just here to be by your side.
Will you try to stretch out your little palm
so that I can hold it and enter your little cave?
do you think we could just hug each other
living no space of inch between us?
Let the darkness engulf us both
let us be one with the darkness
should we try and cry together
May be that will help ease our pain...
No, no, you are definitely not abandoned
I promise that will never happen
Even if the whole world walks away from you
including those who tell you that they love you..
I will be there rock solid by your side.
To be honest, i am not sure if I am
any better in handling the pain and
all these newly experienced emotions and feelings
but if we put our two little weak and vulnerable hearts together
I think we will find our way...
Little girl, I so understand your pain
I hear your heart beating like a drum
you struggling to breath
and you trying hard to control your tears
Little one, I must tell you...
I love you dearly for just who you are
all your imperfections and vulnerabilities
all those fears and faults
I love your passion with which
you wall your pain off from the outside world
I love your passion with which
you try and reach out to everyone that needs love
I love your passion to face your fears
I love your passion to try and feel the love
This has not been an easy journey and
it wont be one.. but darling..
You are not alone
I am always going to walk by your side
I am not the strongest or wisest soul around
but i know together we can survive.
I never want you to loose that vulnerable side in you.
I never want you to become a robotic machine
working on autopilot without caring for emotions of others
in the name of living for yourself and living at a choice.
There open the flood gates and I hear your sob
I hold you in my arms..
You are safe, you are my angel, my darling little pearl
You are everything I can only dream to be
and even more so with these sobs and tears.
Cry my darling girl, it is just fine to cry
You are crying for yourself
to release your pain, hurt, sorrow and discomfort
and dont let anyone tell you that you are wrong in doing that..
why are you hiding away any ways?
who are you scared of?
why these wall construction all over again?
when you have been working so hard to bring them down...
You survived most difficult times
by successfully walling yourself off
you managed to swallow your pain, trauma and anger
along with your cries for help and reasons to smile..
But darling, I know there is another side in you
that is waiting to be given a release
let that anger out, let it go
you have reasons to be mad
You have hurt yourself long enough
by internalizing all the pain and grief, fear and anger,
Is there a reason why you are afraid to let it out?
who or what are you trying to protect?
It is that anger that drives you in life
It is the anger that protects you from harm
Anger is as much part of life
as is love, joy, happiness and sky..
Yes I know you are doubting yourself
and doubting world around you..
You are unsure of the path you have chosen
and you really want to surrender and give up on life..
you lost your sense of pride, confidence
along with your sleep and everyday life..
You wonder if you are capable of
taking even a step ahead on this path..
It might seem easy to give up
to accept that you are not meant for this way of life
that you doesn't deserve love or joy
and it is better to live a life that you have lived up till now.
Yes you can chose to do so if you feel
that is what is best for you at the moment
you know for sure what is best for you
and I will be there with you in every choice that you make.
Sweetheart it is also perfectly ok to feel miserable, hurt,
humiliated, lost, disappointed, and weak.
Let even those emotions sink in every cell of your body
and see how deep can it percolate down your spine.
You have right to cry as much as you need
till it helps you feel lighter and ready to smile
It is ok to doubt yourself and the world around
as long as you respect yourself and dont give up on hope and life.
You are afraid that you will not
be able to express yourself any more
may be that is true since you suffered a big blow..
but hey, there is no harm in giving it a try
I firmly believe in your innate beauty, strength and femininity
your golden heart and empathetic soul.
just try and be empathetic to yourself
so that your wounds can heal and you can smile.
There is more to life than just this event
you know it better than anyone else
dont give up on life and on yourself
just because someone else failed you hard..
be yourself, take pride in who you are
stand strong, head held high and
tell yourself.. you are a beautiful soul and
you will live 'love' all your life...
I love you my little girl
I truly do..
I just wish I would have been more proactive
on helping you believe in that...
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